Heavy

I'm always thinking how short life is and never doing anything about it. I have so much I'm going to do, and haven't done.

I know when I stalled out, I should get extra credit for that.

Seriously, what do I do? How do I do? When did I get scared (I said I knew when I stalled out, not when I got scared, that happened sometime after)?

I can tell you... I don't wanna be doing this all day everyday. This does not fill in the gaps for me (even though there is A LOT of free food here).

I wanna be outside when I feel like it, and work on things I care about, with my hands, and my brain and my heart, and feel free, and be free. That's what I want to do with my life.

I gotta make that happen soon, really, I do. I just gotta. I used to be that girl. I want to be that woman.

My chest hurts...